COLLEGE RANT!!!!

29 January 2024

So, my second semester of college is starting on Thursday. Academics-wise I'm doing pretty good, but you will never fucking guess what happened to me recently.

At the beginning of the month, I started applying for a loan to pay off the upcoming semester's tuition bill. When I checked my school's portal thingy, the total money I owed was some 14-ish thousand dollars. So, like any reasonable person, I used that number when filling out my loan application. Cut to today, three days before the semester starts, and I have just finished filling out my loan application. I check my portal again for the first time in a while, and… my tuition bill is now EIGHTEEN THOUSAND DOLLARS. Which means I'm officially $4k short of paying for the semester.

AAAAUUUUUUUGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I mean, tuition payments aren't due until February 10th, and my loan hasn't been approved yet, so there may still be enough time to sort everything out. But that doesn't change the fact that I'm pissed. I'm SO fucking pissed. If I could, I would walk right up to my school's bursar and absolutely throttle that bastard. What a load of bullshit.

But really, at the heart of the issue, this is all just reminding me of how ridiculously expensive college is. $36k in tuition fees per year just isn't sustainable for me. I think I'll either have to transfer to a different school with lower tuition (preferably not in America but. lol.), or just drop out entirely.

Which is really upsetting because believe it or not, I actually like going to college! Like, I've got nothing against my parents, but living with them as an adult feels suffocating. At college, I actually feel like I have a degree of freedom. Mentally, I've been feeling better than I have in years. Walking to class means that I've been getting regular exercise and time outdoors, and I've been eating much better. While schoolwork may be demanding, it's still perfectly doable and I never feel overwhelmingly stressed about it.

Man I really don't mean to keep making these blog posts so negative lol. Hopefully next time I'll be back with something more optimistic.